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"Boundaries in Healing: Choosing Me Over We", Project Heal 2024

Reflection Revisiting my essay, "Boundaries in Healing: Choosing Me Over We" , published by Project Heal in February of this year stirs up many emotions.  The hardest essay I've written to date; confronting the content of this piece was more challenging than I predicted. When I originally pitched the concept in December '23, I felt very confident in my ability to address the difficult subject matter, however, transitioning from concept to reality was beyond what I ever expected.  As an autobiographical essayist, I should of course be aware of how difficult it can be to reflect, revisit, and share what can be very intimate and painful experiences, but typically this process only occurs when I feel myself to be at a healed place with the content. So, when it came time for me to begin writing this essay, my understanding of my level of healing in relationship to disordered eating and body dysmorphia was critically challenged.  My relationship to my body and appearance e...
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"My Old $2000 Skirt Doesn't Match My New Life", Business Insider 2023

Reflection It has been a year and a half since my first autobiographical essay was originally published in Business Insider . In many ways, it feels as though that was so much longer ago. Despite how much personal and professional life that I have been privileged to live since that time, I feel proud to reread this essay, and still feel resonance and pride in what I was able to convey (in what was unfortunately such a low word limit lol). Being featured as an author in Business Insider was a dream come true- my first big publishing fish! Writing this essay helped me reflect and see how far I had come, when I thought I was still mid-spiral. Through writing this piece, I had to open my eyes and orient myself; realizing my new-found stability, strength, and optimism I still possessed.  Starting fresh is likely never easy, but when you clear the clutter it's amazing what you can find. I hope this essay helps you at whatever time you're reading it.  ♡ You can read my essay here ....
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"Temple of Language"

1O.2O.2O23 Attempts to worship In the temple of language Fleeting eminence  EJS I've recently come to a conflict of identity. Caught up in titles- those I assign to myself, those I have invited into projection, and those I seek to avoid. All of it manifesting in a paralysis of action.  I can’t do this because i'm not that . I wish I could do x, but because I have not earned y, no one could possibly respect my attempt at z. Living in my mind. Trapped in a prison of my fear-based ideology.  Sincerely, I want to change this, and I even believe on some level that I can, but holding that thought in mind does not permit the transcendent change actually occurring. I feel overwhelmed by the desire to receive permission. I catch myself trying to seek out esoteric explanations for my non-startism: Perhaps it’s my generator need to respond, or it’s my virgo perfectionism, maybe it’s because of my conventional ENTJ-A approach to life… There is temporary salve in these definitions...
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