Temple of Language

1O.2O.2O23 Attempts to worship In the temple of language Fleeting eminence  EJS I've recently come to a conflict of identity. Caught up in titles- those I assign to myself, those I have invited into projection, and those I seek to avoid. All of it manifesting in a paralysis of action.  I can’t do this because i'm not that . I wish I could do x, but because I have not earned y, no one could possibly respect my attempt at z. Living in my mind. Trapped in a prison of my fear-based ideology.  Sincerely, I want to change this, and I even believe on some level that I can, but holding that thought in mind does not permit the transcendent change actually occurring. I feel overwhelmed by the desire to receive permission. I catch myself trying to seek out esoteric explanations for my non-startism: Perhaps it’s my generator need to respond, or it’s my virgo perfectionism, maybe it’s because of my conventional ENTJ-A approach to life… There is temporary salve in these definitions...